Tuesday, November 16
loosing it as a parent
We drove home from grandmas house this weekend, Audrey in full tantrum. Jeremiah, Audrey and I in the car. She wouldn't stop screaming, for what seemed like an eternity of miles.
I tried singing songs, and assuring her and bribing her. Everything. Really.
She cried, and screamed. I was so tired.
And then Jeremiah starts to cry, he never does.
He said he was tired of her, and he had the worst headache ever because of her.
So there I go, working every trick in the moms book, with no luck. Two kids crying in the back of my car.
I lost it. And yelled that is enough! (i've had enough)
And put the music really really loud. It was a good song too.
They kind of got it. I think.
We somehow made it home. And I almost cried.
Why is it so easy to have faith in yourself as a parent when everything is good? Why is it so hard when we need it most?
We started talking to Jeremiah about sex and drugs (so not related, but on my mind).
I hope he has faith in God, faith in himself, and faith in us. When the time comes I hope he makes the right choices.