After our nap this afternoon, Audrey woke up saying pizza! pizza! (no, I don't always feed her pizza!).
Kip heard her, and said, tell mama to pick up pizza for dinner.
I said a little prayer of thanks, YES! No dinner making!
We took a trip to fresh&easy to pick up some pizza. I really love this store. Their eat well ready meals save a working mom's butt like all the time.
So, more sharing, I finally gave in. I can't work nights and take care of Audrey during the day anymore. It was way too much. I was tired, all the time. I don't know why I kept feeling guilty. It was not fair to her either. She needs to run and play, not lay in bed with mom.
Kip and I talked. And he said it's time. To get a sitter.
That guilt, of not taking care of her, kept hanging on. Not wanting to let go of the fact, that I'm not super mom.
It's been a couple of weeks now. I have more energy. I am in a better mood. My days off with her are so much more valuable.
She is adjusting well. And is so excited to see me when I pick her up. There's been less moods, and that is such a good thing.
It's been the best thing, for us.
*fresh and easy did not ask me to post a link or write about them.
3 comments:
I worked at home until Levi was two. I thought that was tough, but I can't imagine working nights and taking care of a kiddo during the day. That is one tough gig. I admire you for giving it such a shot. I'm glad y'all have found a happy medium though, so you can get some rest.
I don't know how you were doing it before!! I think it is a great desicion. You have to always find a balance and if you are feeling much better then that means you can be a much better Mami!
Oh, I totally love fresh & easy! In fact, I've actually tweeted them and asked...er, begged...them to build one in our city. ;)
stephanie@metropolitanmama.net
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